Strike a Pose

Living on a planet full of people....alone, but not lonely.

The deafening silence of the unconscious, the unaware human like mannequins with painted on faces, waiting for someone or something to reposition their pose and change their fashion.

Suspended in time and unable to recognize the life of bondage self inflicted by allowing themselves to be manipulated by an unexplainable force that they never question.

A Beautiful Dream

Spirit is dreaming, and we are the manifestations of that dream.

The realm of dreams yields unlimited possibilities into the unknown.

Go to the "still point" and there you will "feel" spirit and recognize the illusion of ego.

Loving with a Passion that knows No Limits

Real affection cannot be an investment or conditioned.

Real love knows no limits.....

I love you not for what you could give me, for you have nothing to give,

but for the sheer affection I feel for you!

Riding Tandem

Last Saturday my honey took me out on the tandem for a leisurely ride with the House of Pain group. OMG.......I think he may have been trying to do me in! Although it was an extremely hard effort (for me) I managed to hang in there. I don't know if Ron will ever get me to ride with those people again.

After our ride we decided to go and check out a new bike shop in Pleasanton called Crank 2. It is a Tandem only bicycle shop on Sunol Boulevard. The shop is not open yet but the owners where inside setting everything up to open December 1, and they where nice enough to stop and chat with us for a moment. They love riding Tandem so much, that they decided to share their passion by opening up this Tandem specialty store. There are some beautiful bikes in there, and many other great Tandem gadgets. If you love your Tandem, or want to look into getting a Tandem, you can check out their online store as well. www.crank-2.com

Another great date-day with my honey! Now next weekend our date will take place at a cycle cross race in Prunedale.

Holloween Cycle Cross

We had such a great time today! Ron did fantastic (blog post to come soon) and I did my best, as I always try to do. The course was fast and fun. I fell twice, dropped my chain......but I did not come in last. I was 16 out of 18 even after all my bike drama, and man...that nice "I have to puke feeling" during the race wasn't even that bothersome today.

Thank you to all you lovely ladies who cheered me on, it helped A LOT! The DJ was awesome, he had his funk on all day. There were some fun costumes, I wore all pink with my princess crown, because you all know that PINK MAKES EVERYTHING BETTER!

Now that this Great Day is over, I am off to collapse in front of the t.v.

EVERYTHING PINK!

PINK IS THE COLOR OF LOVE, THE COLOR THAT CALMS THE SOUL AND BRINGS SERENITY.

PINK IS THE COLOR OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BIKE I HAVE EVER SEEN!

PINK IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL HUE IN A SUNSET

PINK IS THE COLOR OF THE BEST PINK SUPERSTORE EVER!

PINK

PINK IS THE COLOR THAT SAYS "I AM WOMAN, I AM SEXY, I AM GODDESS"!

Getting Ready

Well, I went walking with my friend for about 2 hours last night, and I did 45 minutes of 10 minute intervals on the trainer this afternoon and I will be walking with my friend again tonight for two hours. Now I need to get over to the park early evening this week to do hill repeats and some running.

WILL ALL THIS WORK PAY OFF!!!

I hope so, cause I need more....something if I am going to be any good at this cross racing stuff. Ok Ron and Johnny, when is the next cross clinic, I really need some help!

I Huffed and I Puffed

Round and round and round I go, where I finish, nobody knows!

Well I didn't fall, I didn't get lapped and I didn't come in last. Today was the Livermore cx race and I thought I would be able to do a little better place wise this time, but I can't seem to pump it up enough on the straits and then theres the 42 cement stairs of doom. Looks like I need some more time in spin class....that will consist of Ron yelling at me with a bull horn on my trainer in the family room, "There's no crying in cycle cross, now push it, push it"! "Get in a bigger gear, jump off your bike and run around the house, now stair step, stair step"!

I am the Known and the Unknown

I am God manifested into the Sacred Garment called Ronnie

Say I Am You

If reality is only known through consciousness, then for all practical purposes, we may assume there is nothing other than consciousness!

I am the dust that
floats in bright sunlight.
I am the sun, too, burning so bright.

Say to the dust, stay, And to the sun, keep
Moving in circles, Wake us to light.

I am the mist of
Sweet early morning,
And the soft breathing
When evening is born.

I am the wind in
Swaying green branches,
Taking my chances
As surf pounding shore.

First I the silence,
Then I the choice,
To take form as this song,
Now I the voice.

I am the candle,
And the moth flying,
flirting with dying,
As it goes round.

I the rose blooming,
And at the same time,
Nightingale lost in
Fragrance sublime.

All orders of Being,
Galaxies turning,
Intelligence burning
In evolution.

I am the lifting,
The falling away,
Living and dying,
Night and the day.

In all things created,
Known and forgotten,
I am what is,
And what is not.

Master of masters,
One within all,
You who so know me,
Answer this call:

Say now the secret,
Say the word true.
Say what the heart knows,
Say I am you.

Life Wrapped in Dream

Have you ever stopped and asked yourself this question......."Hey man, is this a dream"?

Have you ever had a dream that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake up from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world...and the real world?

What is real? How do you define real? Would you define it as what you can feel...what you can smell, taste and see? Then the "real" is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain. So, what we see to be real is only a neural-interactive simulation.....also known as-a dream.

What you see in the mirror every day is just a mental projection of your dream self, your residual self-image in your waking "dream" life.

Taking Responsibility

If you are not taking responsibility for your state of consciousness, you are not taking responsibility for life.

Although many people believe that everyone else is the cause of their bad life, bad day, bad mood. The truth is that NO ONE can CAUSE your poor state of consciousness. You and only You are responsible for the way you choose to feel. If you put that responsibility on the people around you....you will always be disappointed.

"Today I take responsibility for My state of Consciousness. I realize that I am the master of my thoughts and that I am the creator of my Joy".

My Dream Right NOW

I was thinking about me today. What if everything I am experiencing is just a reflection of myself, like if I were standing in a hall of mirrors, a hall of fun house mirrors. I could see all my reflections, but they were all different.

What if everyone in my life is just a reflection of some part of me. I was holding little Ronnie this morning and for the first time, I could see my reflection staring back at me. I thought back to the time of the dream of him. The time I decided to have children and what I was thinking and experiencing at that time. When I look at my son now, I can see manifested before my eyes my thoughts and experiences at his conception. I understood in that moment, myself.

All the reflections around me, my husband, children, family and friends have a new meaning to me. I look at my son and see how fragile, yet how much strength he reflects back to me. This child who is unable to see, move or speak, yet his affect on everyone around him is so profound. How can this be? I have spent so much of my life feeling powerless and immobile with an inaudible voice, yet I look at my son and see such beauty and strength. Is that who I really am….beauty and strength? I look into his eyes and see Love, is that who I really am…..Love?

This is my dream today, this is the reflection I see right now LOVE!

The Holy Moment

Some people live in the illusion of the past, and some in the illusion of the future. I choose right now (the present) where time stands still, where space surrounds me, where I swim in the flow of conscious awareness. Right Now is the Holy Moment where God can be heard.

ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS LISTEN!

The Helix Nebula

Racing my Bike and Loving It!

I have been having so much fun riding cycle cross. I have participated in 4 races so far this season and I am sort of getting the hang of it. At this weekend's race in Prunedale (I didn't come in last) and that was so awesome!

I started riding a bike because it is my husbands passion and I wanted to share that passion with him. The great thing is that I really love it! Being able to share this with him has given us so much joy, it's like we are dating all over again. He is always there cheering me on, and yelling out riding tips that I don't understand.

This last race we did in Prunedale I could hear him yelling out, "get in a bigger gear"! I'm thinking, does that mean a harder or an easier gear??? Then I was confused and in pain at the same time. I haven't quite got the lingo down yet, but I am sure I will soon.....I hope!

Anyway-I don't care much about winning, but I do love to challenge myself. I love to get out and see what my body can do. I love the wonderful people we meet. I have had so much fun with all the ladies, everyone is out there having fun and cheering each other on. Most important, I love sharing this wonderful sport with my honey!

Yikes it's time for Cyclecross!

I suck less at it this year, and I am having a lot of fun. Today was my second race and this time I didn't fall or come in last....yea me! My lovely husband cheered me on as I hyperventilated around the course several times. I like the course at Roberson Park except for those dam stairs (I Hate the Stairs, I Hate the Stairs) and the sand sort of sucks too, but at least I didn't fall in it this time.

I could hear Ron giving me pointers from across the field when I hit the sand pit, "Carry your bike, carry your bike" he yelled. "You carry my friggen bike" I said to myself as I huffed through the sand, and I guess I said it loud enough for people to hear because the guy next to me laughed. I could hardly get my feet to work in that stupid sand pit and I wasn't about to try to carry my bike through it!

The good news is that last week I placed 8th and was the last to come over the line, but today I placed 5th and I wasn't the last to finish. So today was a good day for me. I am also very thankful to have had my family and friends there to cheer me on, it gave me that little extra something to keep me going.

Thanks For Cheering for Me Guys!

A special thanks to my best mate and lovely husband for all the support....for making my bike lighter, and better to handle. For cheering me on even when I suck, and for helping me to be the best that I can be on my bike and in my life.

THANKS BABE...I LOVE YOU!

Issues of No Significance!

I thought about this clip from the movie "Waking Life" today as I watched "The buffet of lies", I mean "the debate" this morning. I found it interesting that religion was brought into the debate. How can religion be part of the discussion with such a diverse religious and spiritual population anyway! Hmmmmmmmm such an interesting dream this is.

I Reject Your Reality and Substitute My Own!

So, I was talking to my dream husband today and I told him that all of his rules and perceptions were all make-believe, and that none of it applies to me because in my dream reality his rules aren't real. I often wonder what truths we all think we are learning here in our dream lives?? Truth about our Universe, Planet, Humanity, History, Mathematics, Physics, Quantum Physics, Ourselves, God? What is it that we TRULY KNOW about anything?

Now I know that there are many of you who will argue the point, and give all sorts of Imaginary answers, and Imaginary facts about what this person or that person has come up with, but we all know that these Imaginary facts and equations don't last. Before long there are new discoveries to dispute the previous information and we are back trying to find these Imaginary truths again.

So what is my reality you ask? Well, I really have no way to express that information to you in words. I could explain it to you and you would hear/see my words but how do I know that you would understand? So much of what we see and feel is intangible, mere words/symbols could never express my perceptions to you. I will say this....here is big enough for each of us to have our own personal universe. Here is what I see it as, what I believe it to be. What dose this all mean to you.......Nothing!

I am just a dream character in your dream life!

Im so glad your life is Miserable!

It is amazing to me how much satisfaction some people get from degrading others. I was looking through a few magazines today while waiting for my husband to get out of surgery, and I was so taken back by all the terrible things written in them. I understand that actors and actresses are in the public eye, but OMG the terrible things that are in these publications is alarming!

More alarming than that is that people buy, read and believe all these things. How sad for people to treat each other with such disregard. It seems so easy for people to dehumanize each other, give stories to magazines about their friends and family to make a buck, stab each other in the back, lie and cheat each other, throw away friendships and family relationships. For what? To be right? To be better? To be more important?

A weekend of fun!

I am so excited! This weekend we are going camping and bike riding with some of our good friends. It is so nice to get away from the entropy of the city and everyday life, I can hardly wait to just relax. Little Ronnie is anticipating our trip as well, he is all smiles today, he will enjoy the peace and quiet. No phones or t.v, no computer, no doctor appointments for him, and he likes that just fine..........And so do I!

I have given my cats the job of answering the phone and all the emails until we return, so please leave your inquiries with them. If you do not speak cat, you will have to wait to speak to us when we return.

Julious will be answering all the emails, be brief, he tends to get crabby if you pester him.


Frankie will be answering the phone so just leave him your name and number or you may confuse him.

Who Am I???

Have you ever asked yourself that question?

Am I an accumulation of all my past experiences, is that all that I am, or am I something more. I thought about "my story" today, and I am not even sure if I know what that is anymore.

I can no longer identify with the story I thought was mine. I have no attachments to that past part of who I thought I was, the story I have been telling myself and others. The only thing I can come up with now is that "I AM LIFE" nothing more, nothing less.

I AM!

Our Son the Rocker!

This summer Dyllan, with his friends Will and Tom, took a week long Band Works class. This is the first time the boys have played all together and they did a great job after just one week. Dyllan is the guitar player with the hat, Will is the guitar player next to him, and Tom is the drummer on the left of Dyllan. I am not sure who the other boys are, and the teacher is the one playing the base and singing.

I Promise Myself.....

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to everyone I meet.

To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.

To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.

To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.

To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature I meet.

To give so much time improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in great deeds.

To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

"The Optimist Creed"
Christian D. Larsen

Ahhhhh.......Time to Rest!

It has been a long hard day for Julious the cat
he has been out chasing bugs
climbing the tree in the front yard
chasing the squirrel
running from Frankzilla the cat
eating
drinking
chasing more bugs
and now it is time for him to hit the pillow.

My Dear Friends

I was thinking about the friends I have had and that Ron and I have had over the years, and the friends I have now.

I thought about the excellent times and the not so excellent times we have had with our friends, and that no matter how things have played out, I have always been thankful for all the wonderful moments we have shared together.

I am so thankful my dear friends for all the wonderful times we have shared, for all the lessons we have learned from each other, and for all the moments we will share together now and in the future. I am so thankful dear friends, for all the beautiful memories I have, and I will keep the most excellent memories here in my heart to cherish always!

To a Lifetime of Friends I say.............Thank You!

*Due to a limited number of hard copy pictures these are just a small sample of some of my friends*

More Pics from the Santa Ynez Valley Nationls

Morning of the first day of racing

Dyllan and Buddy

Ron getting ready for the short track race.

Getting his bike ready for the dusty track.

On your mark, get set, Go!
I said Go! Hey...I said Go!

Too dusty, I'm outa here.

Go Ron!

Ron after the race.

Ronnie and Ross Schnell, the top Pro for the Trek/VW Factory mt. bike racing team.



Second day cross country race,
Ron approaching the feed zone.

I road my bike that weekend too, but it wasn't pretty! I still need a lot more practice on the Mt. bike before I am ready to do any single track racing. I still stop at all the hills I can't see all the way down, it drives Ron crazy. I also don't like riding over sand or gravel, it freaks me out!

A Great Weekend!

Last weekend we took a trip to Southern California for the 8th Annual Santa Ynez Valley Mountain Bike Classic. What we thought would be just a regular weekend of racing, ended up to be the most quality weekend we have had in a very long time. Sure the racing was fun, but the best part of it was the great people we met and camped with.

When we arrived are first task was to find a place to camp. As we checked out the area a man (Bruce) came over to the van and said, " Why don't you pull in here and camp next to us." He moved some of his things out of the way and helped Ron back the trailer into the camp spot.

Life is so funny, sometimes when you least expect it something ordinary turns into something extraordinary. Bruce, Tomarra and Buddy made our weekend at the race so much more then just another bike race. Bruce was able to have Ross Schnell over to our camp site and give Ronnie a new Soccor Jersey that none of the Team Members had yet, and have their picture taken. Ronnie was so excited, he held onto that jersey all afternoon with a big smile on his face.

Tomarra is an amazing pro mt. bike racer who is also living with lupus. Although she was not feeling very well most of the weekend, she was in good spirits and I enjoyed getting to know her.

We all hung out together talking, laughing, sitting around the camp fire, playing with Buddy the dog, and riding our bikes. Thank you for your friendship and kindness, we enjoyed our time with you so much. Ronnie and Dyllan will always remember how fun our weekend with you was, and we hope to be able to do it again.

Dyllan and Buddy

Ron after the short track race

LOVE YOU HONEY!!!

More than words can say
More powerful each day
My love for you expands
Through time and distant lands

It was only yesterday that I saw you from across the school courtyard ,and in that moment I knew that my heart would always belong to you.

An Amazing Story

Last night my son and three of his friends were playing at the school behind our house on their skateboards when six teenagers grabbed their boards and took off. Dyllan was devastated, he came running home screaming, we jumped in the car right away but could not find the teens or their boards. Dyllan had only had his new custom board since his birthday this January, and we were all just sick that the teens could do such a thing.

I have been working on the law of attraction, and I thought to myself.....how have I possibly attracted this situation into my life? In my meditation this morning I put my thoughts to work on thinking better thoughts about people in general and about our world. I know sometimes we can all have such negative thoughts about how people behave. I also thought to myself, wouldn't it be nice if we found Dyllans skateboard at the school.

When I got home from picking up Dyllan from school today and walked up to the front door, guess what........Dyllans skate board was sitting at our front door with a note on it!

We were so Surprised and Grateful to see Dyllans board at the door in perfect condition!

Dyllans good friends found the skateboard in the bushes at the school and new that it belonged to him.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH JOEL and TYLER!!

Think better thoughts, and create a better world for all of us!

Fall In Love With Yourself......

And The Rest of the World will be There to Fall in Love with You Too!

I am not talking about conceit...I am talking about a healthy love for yourself, who you are and your beautiful body. The way you feel about yourself radiates out into the universe and draws back to it the energy you are putting forth. So if you dislike who you are and how you look, you will draw to you the circumstances and people that will confirm your own thoughts about who you are.

I BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE GREAT

AND THAT THERE IS SOMETHING MAGNIFICENT ABOUT YOU!




I LOVE WHO I AM AND WHO WE ARE TOGETHER,
YOU AND I
&
OUR INCREDIBLE BOYS!

Something better is on its way!

"A person can only harm you if you believe that they can."

The Power that is within me is Greater than the Power within the World!

I am the creator of my life. I am the author. I write the story, the pen is in my hand and the outcome is whatever I choose it to be.

I am more than I think I am
and I can be even
more than that!

Each of us receives back the energy we put out into the world. What kind of energy are you sending out into the universe? Are you creating a life you feel good about?

I FEEL GOOD
JOYFUL
GRATEFUL

Gratitude

I am so grateful for my loving husband

I am so grateful to have such beautiful, healthy children

I am so very grateful to have such wonderful cats who bring our family such joy!

LIFE IS NOT ABOUT TOMORROW, IT IS ABOUT RIGHT NOW!

Give Thanks right now for all the Blessings in your life!!