Right Now

Calm, Quiet

Relaxed and Peaceful.

Ahhhhh!

Time stands still, the Universe 

supports me, all is well in my World.

Maybe I will Maybe I won't

It's hard to say.......

Now that I have my own laptop, I just may start blogging more often.  After our other laptop shut me out, I stopped going on the computer altogether because the other computer was in the back of the house.

Now I have my very own Mac Notebook and it's all mine!  I already had to beat Ron away from it several times.  Now I can sit on the couch and type away.

Love Thyself

I am an Excellent Woman!

I LOVE MYSELF, THEREFORE I LOVE AND CARE FOR MY BODY AND SPIRIT.

Who we are is not determined by what others say we are, but how WE view ourselves. Therefore it is vital for us women to recognize our own inner and outer beauty.
It is time for women to Love and Approve of themselves just as they are. We are the sacred female, we allow the space within our sacred bodies that brings forth the manifestation of life.

The World Is What You Think It Is

Have you ever tried to find that "Quiet Space" between your thoughts? The place where the world no longer exists?

Think about the small child that follows you all around constantly asking you question and chattering about this thing and that, have you ever met one of those children? The funny thing is that we are that small child that never shuts up.

We Think and talk too much. We must try to find a quiet space between our thoughts and stop talking to ourselves so much. We carry on an internal talk. Think about it. Whenever you are alone, what do you do? You talk to yourself. We talk to ourselves about our world. In fact we maintain our world with our internal talk.

Whenever we finish talking to ourselves the world is always as it should be. We renew it, we kindle it with life, we uphold it with our internal talk. Not only that, but we also choose our paths as we talk to ourselves. Thus we repeat the same choices over and over until the day we die, because we keep on repeating the same internal talk over and over until the day we die.

The world is such-and-such or so-and-so only because we tell ourselves that that is the way it is. If we stop telling ourselves that the world is so-and-so, the world will stop being so-and-so.

The world is incomprehensible. We won't ever understand it; we won't ever unravel its secrets. Thus we must treat it as it is, a sheer mystery!

Most people do not do this though. The world is never a mystery for them, and when they arrive at old age they are convinced they have nothing more to live for. An old man has not exhausted the world. He has exhausted only what people do. But in his stupid confusion he believes that the world has no more mysteries for him. What a wretched price to pay! It is important for people to become aware of this confusion and learn to treat things properly. The things that peo0ple do cannot under any conditions be more important than the world. And thus should treat the world as an endless mystery and what people do as an endless folly!

You are the Master of your Choices

I am happy because I choose to look at things that make me happy. My happiness depends on the power of my decision to be happy. I have to be the master of my choices. I must fully understand that my choice is my responsibility and once I make it, there is no longer time for regrets or recriminations.

All I have is life to be lived so I live by acting, not by thinking about acting, nor by thinking about what I will think when I have finished acting. When I fulfill my acts I retreat in peace, and whether my acts were good or bad, or worked or didn't, is in no way part of my concern. I choose a path with heart and follow it. One must always choose the path with heart in order to be at one's best, perhaps so one can always laugh.

Change Your Life!

Have you read this book??I read A New Earth several months ago, and LOVED it! Now Oprah is having a free online class on this fabulous book. Oprah and Eckhart Tolle will be teaching this class by web cam on Monday nights starting March 3 on Oprah.com

Are You Listening??

Shhhhhhhh

Can you hear that? It is the sound of his heartbeat.
I hold him close and listen carefully, not only to what he says to me, but
to what he doesn't say.

I look into his beautiful face and I "see" his potential, his TRUE potential.
The unfolding of spirit into a world of unlimited possibilities. This child that
has come through me to live a life of his own choosing.

Who am I in all this? I am his Mother, his guardian, the one who needs to be
ever present and to TRULY listen and guide him without denying him the space to
grow and learn on his own.

SEE your children! HEAR your children! CHERISH every moment with your children! They need you even when you don't think they do anymore!

In Loving memory of Kelci, a 13 year old classmate of my son Dyllan who took her own life January 24, 2008

Strike a Pose

Living on a planet full of people....alone, but not lonely.

The deafening silence of the unconscious, the unaware human like mannequins with painted on faces, waiting for someone or something to reposition their pose and change their fashion.

Suspended in time and unable to recognize the life of bondage self inflicted by allowing themselves to be manipulated by an unexplainable force that they never question.

A Beautiful Dream

Spirit is dreaming, and we are the manifestations of that dream.

The realm of dreams yields unlimited possibilities into the unknown.

Go to the "still point" and there you will "feel" spirit and recognize the illusion of ego.

Loving with a Passion that knows No Limits

Real affection cannot be an investment or conditioned.

Real love knows no limits.....

I love you not for what you could give me, for you have nothing to give,

but for the sheer affection I feel for you!

Riding Tandem

Last Saturday my honey took me out on the tandem for a leisurely ride with the House of Pain group. OMG.......I think he may have been trying to do me in! Although it was an extremely hard effort (for me) I managed to hang in there. I don't know if Ron will ever get me to ride with those people again.

After our ride we decided to go and check out a new bike shop in Pleasanton called Crank 2. It is a Tandem only bicycle shop on Sunol Boulevard. The shop is not open yet but the owners where inside setting everything up to open December 1, and they where nice enough to stop and chat with us for a moment. They love riding Tandem so much, that they decided to share their passion by opening up this Tandem specialty store. There are some beautiful bikes in there, and many other great Tandem gadgets. If you love your Tandem, or want to look into getting a Tandem, you can check out their online store as well. www.crank-2.com

Another great date-day with my honey! Now next weekend our date will take place at a cycle cross race in Prunedale.

Holloween Cycle Cross

We had such a great time today! Ron did fantastic (blog post to come soon) and I did my best, as I always try to do. The course was fast and fun. I fell twice, dropped my chain......but I did not come in last. I was 16 out of 18 even after all my bike drama, and man...that nice "I have to puke feeling" during the race wasn't even that bothersome today.

Thank you to all you lovely ladies who cheered me on, it helped A LOT! The DJ was awesome, he had his funk on all day. There were some fun costumes, I wore all pink with my princess crown, because you all know that PINK MAKES EVERYTHING BETTER!

Now that this Great Day is over, I am off to collapse in front of the t.v.

EVERYTHING PINK!

PINK IS THE COLOR OF LOVE, THE COLOR THAT CALMS THE SOUL AND BRINGS SERENITY.

PINK IS THE COLOR OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BIKE I HAVE EVER SEEN!

PINK IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL HUE IN A SUNSET

PINK IS THE COLOR OF THE BEST PINK SUPERSTORE EVER!

PINK

PINK IS THE COLOR THAT SAYS "I AM WOMAN, I AM SEXY, I AM GODDESS"!

Getting Ready

Well, I went walking with my friend for about 2 hours last night, and I did 45 minutes of 10 minute intervals on the trainer this afternoon and I will be walking with my friend again tonight for two hours. Now I need to get over to the park early evening this week to do hill repeats and some running.

WILL ALL THIS WORK PAY OFF!!!

I hope so, cause I need more....something if I am going to be any good at this cross racing stuff. Ok Ron and Johnny, when is the next cross clinic, I really need some help!

I Huffed and I Puffed

Round and round and round I go, where I finish, nobody knows!

Well I didn't fall, I didn't get lapped and I didn't come in last. Today was the Livermore cx race and I thought I would be able to do a little better place wise this time, but I can't seem to pump it up enough on the straits and then theres the 42 cement stairs of doom. Looks like I need some more time in spin class....that will consist of Ron yelling at me with a bull horn on my trainer in the family room, "There's no crying in cycle cross, now push it, push it"! "Get in a bigger gear, jump off your bike and run around the house, now stair step, stair step"!

I am the Known and the Unknown

I am God manifested into the Sacred Garment called Ronnie

Say I Am You

If reality is only known through consciousness, then for all practical purposes, we may assume there is nothing other than consciousness!

I am the dust that
floats in bright sunlight.
I am the sun, too, burning so bright.

Say to the dust, stay, And to the sun, keep
Moving in circles, Wake us to light.

I am the mist of
Sweet early morning,
And the soft breathing
When evening is born.

I am the wind in
Swaying green branches,
Taking my chances
As surf pounding shore.

First I the silence,
Then I the choice,
To take form as this song,
Now I the voice.

I am the candle,
And the moth flying,
flirting with dying,
As it goes round.

I the rose blooming,
And at the same time,
Nightingale lost in
Fragrance sublime.

All orders of Being,
Galaxies turning,
Intelligence burning
In evolution.

I am the lifting,
The falling away,
Living and dying,
Night and the day.

In all things created,
Known and forgotten,
I am what is,
And what is not.

Master of masters,
One within all,
You who so know me,
Answer this call:

Say now the secret,
Say the word true.
Say what the heart knows,
Say I am you.

Life Wrapped in Dream

Have you ever stopped and asked yourself this question......."Hey man, is this a dream"?

Have you ever had a dream that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake up from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world...and the real world?

What is real? How do you define real? Would you define it as what you can feel...what you can smell, taste and see? Then the "real" is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain. So, what we see to be real is only a neural-interactive simulation.....also known as-a dream.

What you see in the mirror every day is just a mental projection of your dream self, your residual self-image in your waking "dream" life.

Taking Responsibility

If you are not taking responsibility for your state of consciousness, you are not taking responsibility for life.

Although many people believe that everyone else is the cause of their bad life, bad day, bad mood. The truth is that NO ONE can CAUSE your poor state of consciousness. You and only You are responsible for the way you choose to feel. If you put that responsibility on the people around you....you will always be disappointed.

"Today I take responsibility for My state of Consciousness. I realize that I am the master of my thoughts and that I am the creator of my Joy".

My Dream Right NOW

I was thinking about me today. What if everything I am experiencing is just a reflection of myself, like if I were standing in a hall of mirrors, a hall of fun house mirrors. I could see all my reflections, but they were all different.

What if everyone in my life is just a reflection of some part of me. I was holding little Ronnie this morning and for the first time, I could see my reflection staring back at me. I thought back to the time of the dream of him. The time I decided to have children and what I was thinking and experiencing at that time. When I look at my son now, I can see manifested before my eyes my thoughts and experiences at his conception. I understood in that moment, myself.

All the reflections around me, my husband, children, family and friends have a new meaning to me. I look at my son and see how fragile, yet how much strength he reflects back to me. This child who is unable to see, move or speak, yet his affect on everyone around him is so profound. How can this be? I have spent so much of my life feeling powerless and immobile with an inaudible voice, yet I look at my son and see such beauty and strength. Is that who I really am….beauty and strength? I look into his eyes and see Love, is that who I really am…..Love?

This is my dream today, this is the reflection I see right now LOVE!