Holloween Cycle Cross

We had such a great time today! Ron did fantastic (blog post to come soon) and I did my best, as I always try to do. The course was fast and fun. I fell twice, dropped my chain......but I did not come in last. I was 16 out of 18 even after all my bike drama, and man...that nice "I have to puke feeling" during the race wasn't even that bothersome today.

Thank you to all you lovely ladies who cheered me on, it helped A LOT! The DJ was awesome, he had his funk on all day. There were some fun costumes, I wore all pink with my princess crown, because you all know that PINK MAKES EVERYTHING BETTER!

Now that this Great Day is over, I am off to collapse in front of the t.v.

EVERYTHING PINK!

PINK IS THE COLOR OF LOVE, THE COLOR THAT CALMS THE SOUL AND BRINGS SERENITY.

PINK IS THE COLOR OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BIKE I HAVE EVER SEEN!

PINK IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL HUE IN A SUNSET

PINK IS THE COLOR OF THE BEST PINK SUPERSTORE EVER!

PINK

PINK IS THE COLOR THAT SAYS "I AM WOMAN, I AM SEXY, I AM GODDESS"!

Getting Ready

Well, I went walking with my friend for about 2 hours last night, and I did 45 minutes of 10 minute intervals on the trainer this afternoon and I will be walking with my friend again tonight for two hours. Now I need to get over to the park early evening this week to do hill repeats and some running.

WILL ALL THIS WORK PAY OFF!!!

I hope so, cause I need more....something if I am going to be any good at this cross racing stuff. Ok Ron and Johnny, when is the next cross clinic, I really need some help!

I Huffed and I Puffed

Round and round and round I go, where I finish, nobody knows!

Well I didn't fall, I didn't get lapped and I didn't come in last. Today was the Livermore cx race and I thought I would be able to do a little better place wise this time, but I can't seem to pump it up enough on the straits and then theres the 42 cement stairs of doom. Looks like I need some more time in spin class....that will consist of Ron yelling at me with a bull horn on my trainer in the family room, "There's no crying in cycle cross, now push it, push it"! "Get in a bigger gear, jump off your bike and run around the house, now stair step, stair step"!

I am the Known and the Unknown

I am God manifested into the Sacred Garment called Ronnie

Say I Am You

If reality is only known through consciousness, then for all practical purposes, we may assume there is nothing other than consciousness!

I am the dust that
floats in bright sunlight.
I am the sun, too, burning so bright.

Say to the dust, stay, And to the sun, keep
Moving in circles, Wake us to light.

I am the mist of
Sweet early morning,
And the soft breathing
When evening is born.

I am the wind in
Swaying green branches,
Taking my chances
As surf pounding shore.

First I the silence,
Then I the choice,
To take form as this song,
Now I the voice.

I am the candle,
And the moth flying,
flirting with dying,
As it goes round.

I the rose blooming,
And at the same time,
Nightingale lost in
Fragrance sublime.

All orders of Being,
Galaxies turning,
Intelligence burning
In evolution.

I am the lifting,
The falling away,
Living and dying,
Night and the day.

In all things created,
Known and forgotten,
I am what is,
And what is not.

Master of masters,
One within all,
You who so know me,
Answer this call:

Say now the secret,
Say the word true.
Say what the heart knows,
Say I am you.

Life Wrapped in Dream

Have you ever stopped and asked yourself this question......."Hey man, is this a dream"?

Have you ever had a dream that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake up from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world...and the real world?

What is real? How do you define real? Would you define it as what you can feel...what you can smell, taste and see? Then the "real" is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain. So, what we see to be real is only a neural-interactive simulation.....also known as-a dream.

What you see in the mirror every day is just a mental projection of your dream self, your residual self-image in your waking "dream" life.

Taking Responsibility

If you are not taking responsibility for your state of consciousness, you are not taking responsibility for life.

Although many people believe that everyone else is the cause of their bad life, bad day, bad mood. The truth is that NO ONE can CAUSE your poor state of consciousness. You and only You are responsible for the way you choose to feel. If you put that responsibility on the people around you....you will always be disappointed.

"Today I take responsibility for My state of Consciousness. I realize that I am the master of my thoughts and that I am the creator of my Joy".

My Dream Right NOW

I was thinking about me today. What if everything I am experiencing is just a reflection of myself, like if I were standing in a hall of mirrors, a hall of fun house mirrors. I could see all my reflections, but they were all different.

What if everyone in my life is just a reflection of some part of me. I was holding little Ronnie this morning and for the first time, I could see my reflection staring back at me. I thought back to the time of the dream of him. The time I decided to have children and what I was thinking and experiencing at that time. When I look at my son now, I can see manifested before my eyes my thoughts and experiences at his conception. I understood in that moment, myself.

All the reflections around me, my husband, children, family and friends have a new meaning to me. I look at my son and see how fragile, yet how much strength he reflects back to me. This child who is unable to see, move or speak, yet his affect on everyone around him is so profound. How can this be? I have spent so much of my life feeling powerless and immobile with an inaudible voice, yet I look at my son and see such beauty and strength. Is that who I really am….beauty and strength? I look into his eyes and see Love, is that who I really am…..Love?

This is my dream today, this is the reflection I see right now LOVE!